alabaster

did you ever try to convince yourself of something, then to realize that what you're trying to convince yourself of makes no sense? then you have to convince yourself that what you're trying to convince yourself of is not convincing at all?!?!?! i have no idea what i just wrote. but that's how my mind feels at times. just confused and unconvinced of many things. i think i'm just gonna go on auto pilot for a while. i don't have the energy to worry about all of these non convincing thoughts!